I Believe In Change

(This post might be a little similar from before)

It is DEFINITELY difficult for ANYONE to survive in a society who shuns them.

It is DEFINITELY difficult for ANYONE to be able to smile while being mocked at,

It is DEFINITELY difficult for ANYONE to be able to stand proud 

and walk through a crowd of people who judge them and criticize their behaviour.

It is difficult indeed, and I know how much it hurts you.

I've been there before in this pair of shoes that I once wished to dispose of. 

I was mocked, laughed at and judged as well. 

All this, because THEY think it's a sin. 

Oh, how unfair it is to judge one other person entirely based on a holy book 

especially since each person has different beliefs. 

Oh how unfair it is just because of our differences that we became the target of bullying. 

I was a target as well, even though it was nothing serious, 

but it made me feel so terrible that I felt like taking my own life.

Little did I know, I had more friends who stood beside me, on-line AND real life. 

1 friend, 2 friends...3....4....5..? 

It's not a curse no more, it's more like a gift because it made me closer to my friends, 

friends who love me and who are understanding of my position. 

Back then, I felt so ashamed of myself, 

I felt so lonely and I just felt like disposing of myself because I felt so pathetic, 

all because of HIS mockery. 

 So let's review our history shall we?

What is normal in our society?
Left-handed people were once viewed as sinister,
Blacks were once slaves,
and women were treated as a second class citizen.

I have to say that there are still more that needs to be done
to remove discrimination throughout the world,
however,
if discrimination among left-handed people, blacks and women
is slowly declining,
I don't see why it can't happen to homosexuality as well. 

When I first came out, it felt like a huge weight has been lifted. 

My life and my future in this university all depended on my friends' reaction at those particular moments.
Fortunately, they were accepting and tried to understand more about me.

Since then, 

I felt SO MUCH happier and the amount of times I cry each week decreased a whole lot, 

and the laughters from the bottom of my heart became sincere. 

I am very proud of my friends who actually tried to understand more about me 

since most of the people in the society do not even bother to understand and try to judge others.

Being Gay is not a curse if you are able to accept yourself and embrace it.
Being Gay is just one part of who you are and it does not determine your personality. Being Gay is a gift, if you are able to see the bright lights instead of the dark. 

I am who I am ever since I've met you and I've never changed my sexuality. 

If that one part of me disgusts you, then it is your loss. 

The fact that I'm living in an Islamic country, it's even harder on me. 

However, thinking positively is always the best way to struggle through these problems around me. 

Hopefully, one day, I'll be able to hold hands with the one I love without the mockery of society. 

Hopefully, one day, my parents will understand and accept that I AM gay and stop being in denial.
Hopefully, one day, in the future, people will look back into history and think how pathetic it was back then. 

Be kind to one another.